Let Me Live My Dreams.

I honestly wish it were at least two years ago when everything was so amazing between my father and I. When we would hardly ever argue.. unlike now .. when it seems that we argue every day about stupid bullshit.. but still ends up in a verbal conflict between both of us. I don’t understand what is going on. I KNOW that I have no patience.. but I guess I get it from him. Yet, he knows this .. and enjoys triggering me. And then when I blow off, it turns into something that’s my fault. I HATE THIS. I loved the relationship I had with my dad, it was so open … so understanding.. caring, and loving. Now, its basically caring …. about school. Because that’s the only freaking topic that we talk about school. WHY!? My life is not only school and I wish he would understand that. Ironically… I MISS being his little girl, because even though he should feel me becoming distant… Its the other way around.. it sucks when he doesn’t even kiss me goodnight …. or let alone say goodnight for that matter. Hi’s are a simple head nod… I honestly don’t understand what the HELL is going on… i can’t stand it. I’m tired of the arguments, the constant trying to prove myself to him… making him understand my life through my eyes…Instead of him claiming to know everything. I can’t do anything about it. Talking doesn’t resolve anything because he can’t admit to anything he does … but whatever.. I’m just going to suck it up and see how it goes. All i really want … Is to be daddy’s little girl again. 

We made such progress and started acting civil….. and then randomly POOF. thats cool too I guess?